Wednesday, February 3, 2016

Brave & Magic

When I was a little girl, I called my dad "brave and magic" when he fixed something on our boat.  He was so flattered, he went and bought me a ring pop.  And then the nickname stuck- because it had gotten me candy before, so it probably would again, right? ;)

I have recently started teaching Johanna to call you "brave and magic" whenever you fix something for us or lift something really strong, etc.  It is really cute to hear her lifting you up like that!  However, as I hear it more and more, I find myself really thinking of you as my brave and magical man.  You are always willing to work so hard for our family! You are my "Mr. Fix-it"- anytime anything breaks, I can almost always count on you to fix it- and usually by yourself! You are really brave- you would put your life on the line to protect our family and we all know it.  You are such a great protector for our family- and I am so thankful to have you!

Right now, I am 39 weeks and 1 day pregnant...so we could have this new baby anytime!  Our car has been in the shop for almost a week and you had to go pick up the car seat and hospital bag this morning because we have no idea how much longer it is going to take until we get the stupid car back.  And then, big pregnant oofy me dropped my phone in my foot soak last night and it completely broke.... sooo I am feeling a little frustrated. It feels like we have been trying to get everything off our list and have some down time before baby comes, but all these things keep coming up! B&G has had so much work lately, your mom has asked you to do a lot for the farm, we got a renewal notice for the van to go to the DEQ, but we have to get the check engine light fixed first, etc. etc. etc.  But you are working so hard to get everything fixed and I think in like 2 more days, we will have our van back and ready for the hospital and I will get a new phone in the mail.... money aside, at least the problems will be fixed ;)

Anyway, I just wanted to say THANK YOU for all that you do for our family! Thank you for making me feel calm when I could very easily feel overwhelmed here. I know that I can relax- I can go rest during Johanna's nap while you are out picking up a used computer for our van and dropping it off at the Honda dealership.  You are so good to me!

During our date yesterday, you told me you didn't feel ready for this baby to come yet.  You love our life right now and just want a few more days to savor it as it is before beginning our beautiful new adventure.  I love when you share your feelings with me- I sort of feel the same way.  Except I am huge and uncomfortable and tired, so I would rather not wait much longer! Our life is so so beautiful right now.  As excited as I am to meet this new baby and have our amazing family of 4, I love our family of 3.  Johanna is so so sweet and I love giving her so much attention and getting to just soak her up and think everything she does is magical! and I especially love our evenings together- I am a little afraid of not having time with you once new baby is here, but I know it will just be for a season and then we will settle into a new routine and a new normal and we will have time for our marriage again- but it sure has been fun getting to go on a few getaways with you now that I am not breastfeeding, and getting to go out on dates a few times a week, and playing lots of games! You are my very best friend and I enjoy you and our time together so so much.  I am just going to keep daydreaming about our big vacation when baby #2 is 1.5 or 2 before we start trying for baby #3... maybe a cruise or that B&B trip along the Cali coast you almost planned for our honeymoon....it will be so magical to have more than 1 night away with you in a row ;) ;) Love you so so much! xoxoxoxo